167
112/82

Feeling Better

Got sick I mean seriously sick for two weeks. Better now, but have a lingering cough. Back to working out.

Weight 168
BP 110/80

Still sick but going to work out today anyway.

Weight 168

Sick

Lost 2 lbs because of this awful cold.

New Low

Got down to 168.8. Finally feel like I am getting somewhere.

Weight 168.8
BP 118/82
Exercise 45 minutes elliptical machine.

Sunday

Weight 169.2
Exercise
BP

Finally Friday

Finally, a number under 170. Let me see if I can keep this going. As soon as the boys get off to school, I am going to work out.

Weight 169.4 Thank you
BP 103/81
Exercise 45 minutes elliptical machine

I'm about ready to give the eff up. This is ridiculous.

Weight 172 WTF
Exercise 45 minutes elliptical machine
BP 102/79 (new personal best)

Still Good

My weight is down 4 pounds just like it is supposed to be. I just wish it wasn't such a wild ride. I am very hungry. Probably from the exercise and being more aware of how I feel all the time.


Weight 170
Exercise 30 minutes elliptical machine.

Better

I guess my weight is still going to be bouncing around. Went under 170 today. Should be happier, but I don't trust it.

Weight 169.8
BP 108/84

Frustration and Tears

As I sign on here this morning I am in tears. I am really trying and not getting anywhere. My weight this morning was back up to 173. I am spiralling into the give up phase because of absolutely no results. This is killing me. I am keeping track of my calories with a calorie counting gadget from igoogle. I am tracking my effing weight. I am exercising hard every day and nothing. I am beginning to hate this body I am supposed to be taking care of. I don't know what else to do. Why work this hard if it isn't going to give me anything but frustration.

Weight 173
BP 121/87 while crying over my freaking weight.
Exercise. 45 minutes elliptical machine upper body resistance.

Up at 4:00 for some reason. Went to bed at 10:30. Maybe my body clock is resetting and turning me into a morning person which would be great.

weight 172
BP 108/79 (best yet)
Exercise 39 minutes elliptical machine.

Began using the igoogle calorie counter tool. Helps me keep track of my calories without keeping and carrying around a list. I also added a weight tracker gadget. It is giving me trouble. I acccidentally typed in 17 lbs instead of 170 and it won't let me change it. We will see what happens when I put in the correct weight tomorrow. Been eating vegetable soup or vegetable soup with just a tiny bit of meat in it. Filling and low calorie. I get to eat without breaking the calorie bank. Yeah.

Todays soup was chicken & roasted pepper. (mostly peppers, onion and celery with a little bit of shredded chicken thrown in) The base was better than bouillion

Yesterdays was vegetable Can of mixed vegetable with vegetable juice. Couldn't be easier.

Tomorrow broccoli I will make a thin white sauce with skim milk and add onion & broccoli. Maybe an itty bitty bit of cheese sprinkled on top.

weight 170.8
BP 102/87
exercise 30 minutes elliptical machine & upper body resistance

weight 171.2
exercise 36 minutes elliptical

Finally

Weight 172.2 this morning. I thought I was going to cry with relief.

Just to clear it up. I did exercise for 30 minutes on the elliptical machine on Sunday.

Weight 172.2
BP 114/95
Exercise 35 minutes elliptical machine.

This lack of weight loss is really pissing me off.

Weight 174
BP 106/84
Exercise 30 minutes elliptical machine

Monday Monday

my weight is still bouncing all over the place. Yesterday 170 today 174. I'm not going to worry about it as long as it keeps bouncing lower. Remember it did this before and was from 174 to 178 or something so at least this bounce is lower than the last one. Anyway. Working out and eating right. Wine has been put away for special occasions. Larry is on board.

Worked out with mom yesterday 24 minutes on the treadmill. 8 minutes on the elliptical machine.

I added a daily calorie counter and a weight log (which has and average thank you very much) to my igoogle page. I don't see this blog frequently throughout the day, but I use my igoogle page while I am on the internet to get to facebook, twitter and my blogs. It makes sense to have those numbers right in front of my face every day.

Weight 174.
BP 110/90
Exercise 30 minutes elliptical machine upper body weights

weight 172

Had an epiphany today. Reading an article about Maurice Sendak author and illustrator of the book "Where the Wild Things Are." He talked about the American romanticism of childhood. That is when it struck me. I was told, childhood should be idyllic. When I had to look at my real my really real childhood, and it wasn't perfect. Understand, my parents did not tell me my childhood was perfect. They were real people dealing with real issues. It is the culture. The culture says that childhood should be blissful. If this is true, then my young life must have been messed up, right? Not so, it is just life. Children, just like grownups, have real lives not all happy happy joy joy, but the real deal ups downs and sideways.

Somehow I feel much much better. Now, I've got to be more real with my boys.

Yesterday I joined a gym. Today I used it for the first time. 30 minutes on the elliptical machine was really hard, but I did it. Next week I will add in weights. Finally lost a little weight that looks real and not just fluctuations.

weight 170.8
bp 101/85
exercise 30 minutes elliptical machine.

weight 171.2
BP 106/80

Weight 171.8
BP 107/84
Exercise 30 minutes walking in the rain.

Weight 173 still.

D Day

Today is D Day. No more messing around.

weight 173.

Check up

Dr. lectured me royally today about the bad labs and my not very well controlled blood pressure. It really is much worse in the doctors office. Got the 1200 calorie diet and six day a week workout advice. Doing exactly what it is we all should do, but that most of us don't. After about a two minute walk, I jogged the remainder of fifty minutes. It was hard and I wanted to quit.

Just ate a giant plate of grilled veggies with a tiny bit of olive oil, a splash of balsamic vinegar and just a little bit of grated cheese melted on top.

I was going to the post office and decided to take a detour and see how far I have been walk/jogging. This is so sad, I have been spending 45 minutes walking/jogging 2.2 miles. Turtles could lap me.


Weight 173
BP 140/111 at Drs office freaking out
Jog 50 minutes

weight 172.6
bp 113/89

Come On

Yesterday 172 today 173. I am eating perfectly. WTF.

BP 111/90

jog/walked for 45 minutes. More jogging than walking finally.

Getting Rid of Some of the Salt

Well that was some kind of ride. Swelled up to 177 then back down to 170.6 in two days. Salt and my period are apparently bad bedfellows. Anyway, I reached the goal of a little more than three pounds and have learned a lesson about table salt. Today begins another week to try to lose another 3 pounds. Wish me luck and self control.

Working on jogging a little more each time I walk/jog.

Weight 170.6
Exercise 45 minutes walk/jog

weight 175
BP 113/86 Thank you Lord.
Exercise - Intermittent gardening.

Stupid Hormones

Either the scale is crazy or my body has lost it's mind. Scale said 177 this morning. I ate perfectly yesterday and exercised. FML.

A few hours later and it is 176. Guess what? I started. That probably explains a lot. Stupid hormones.

Weight 176 ?????
Exercise - rest

weight roler coster

Weighed 173 this morning WTF. My weight is bouncing all over the place. I have been feeling really awful all day. I don't know if my body is mad at me for taking care of it or what. It can just get over it because I am not stopping.






Weight 173
BP 124/94
Exercise 2 hours hoeing at the farm.

Opps.

I weighed 169.8 this morning. That, my friends, is too fast. I know I was throwing ketones yesterday because I had that wonky taste in my mouth. Going to have to add on a few carbs. I really didn't feel good either. Kind of blurry headed. I ended up in bed before 10:00 pm. I'm a night person so this is not normal. If I remember correctly, it took me about three or four weeks to get the diabetic diet down right when I was pregnant with Logan. I know I am ahead of the curve this time, but I am still going to have to do some adjusting. Apples and peanut butter will probably fix this right up. I won't turn that weight loss down, but that is not how I intend to do this. The goal is three pounds a week, not a pound a day.





Weight 169.8
BP 114/94
Exercise 30 minutes in the garden
1 hour walk/jog

Weight 172.4
BP 118/90
Exercise 27 minutes WII

And The Tree Pose is Kicking My Butt

You know what I hate? I hate it when I share a goal with someone and they immediately shoot it down. I have been researching this weight loss thing. Much of what I have read says that 1 to 3 pounds a week of weight loss is okay. I am a results oriented person. I want to get things done. I lose interest and/or get discouraged if I don't lose faster than that. Knowing this about myself, I feel like setting a higher goal is better for me.

I shared my goal with my mom and sister over lunch today. They both immediately shot me down saying things like that is too fast and, this one I love "You won't keep it off." Yet another piece of useless crap to get stuck in my damned head. Did I mention they are both really thin. Thin people should automatically be supportive. Sometimes it feels like people want a fat girl around to make themselves feel better, although they probably don't even realize it themselves.

And the tree pose is kicking my butt

Crap That Got Stuck in My Head

I have alot of anger about my weight and the way people have treated me in the past. I think now is a perfect time to let the universe know what assholes have been hanging around in my past pissing me off. I'm very grateful they are gone and I'm in a better place now. Still jackasses sometimes leave ghost voices that say things to me like "you've got a lot of FP=fat potential" Thank you idiot ex-boyfriend from college. That bullshit has stayed with me for 22 years. I hope all of your hair fell out.

Weight 173.6 lbs
BP 126/98
Work Out 47 minutes WII = 27 minutes aerobics 20 minutes balance and yoga
Walk/jog 30 minutes total 1 hour 17 minutes.

This Time I Really Mean It.

Okay, my blood pressure went back up to 143/103. My blood sugar average acourding to the a1c is 150, which is not okay with me. I gained the stupid five pounds back. This needs to change and change now. Started a low carb diet last week, no weight change yet. Began walking but not consistently, will use the WII when it is too hot or there are too many mosquitoes. Maybe two a day workout are in order, WII before work walk/jog after.

Weight 174.3
BP 143/103
Work Out 45 minutes WII Fit 26 min aerobics 19 min balance and yoga
30 minute walk/jog w/Logan 1 plank

Health update

I had my blood work done yesterday. My triglycerides and LDL are slightly elevated. I do not have diabetes. My white blood cell count was high, but I don't feel sick. I am just grateful that I don't have diabetes and glad I got a good warning regarding my eating habits. I have lost 5.5 lbs this week. This is a good and encouraging start.

weight 169.8.

Recipe
Brown chopped up vegetable including but not limited to squash, onions, celery, carrots and tomatoes in a little olive oil. When the veggies are done, remove the skillet from the heat and sprinkle a little shredded cheese on top and cover until the cheese is melted. Very yummy.

starting over once again.

Starting over again. Using books on tape to entertain myself while I work. Back to veggie, fruit, and protein. Plan to do lab work this Friday. Treating it like a test I have to pass.

Bought
cabbage
grapefruit
carrots
cantelope
zucchini
cucumbers
apples
skim milk

Now I just have to put them in my body.

Self talk "I am giving myself a gift" Instead of "I am not...."

weight 175

Lovin the Results.

Weighed 170 this morning. Down 8 lbs. BP low enough that I stopped one medication. Monitoring my numbers twice a day to make sure I don't need the second drug. Looks like I can lose about 3 lbs a week on this plan. Very nice.

My blood pressure dropped to 98/74 this morning. Tomorrow, I am going to try to remove one of the medications and see if I stay in the normal range. So glad I gave this diet a chance again. The note book is keeping me on track.

GOOD NUMBERS

I put myself back on the dash diet. I bought a notebook and everything. This morning my weight was down to 172.6 and my blood pressure was 110/78. That is the best reading I have had in four years. I may be on my way to getting off of the medicine, finally.

I think almost anything can be turned into a salad.

I am going to try an experiment with salads. I made fajita salads from the left overs of last weeks and this weeks dinner. Low carb, high protein, lots of veggies. Perfect meal. No I just need to try to make salads out of all the other stuff Larry makes. Get rid of the starch add the veggies.

This week I am adding ten minutes per day on the wii fit to my house cleaning 10 minute schedule. If I miss a day, no problem, just pick it up the next day. There is no making up for missed work outs or house cleaning. I am not punishing myself anymore. Today I set out to do ten minutes and ended up doing twenty. That does not mean I have to do twenty tomorrow. Tomorrows goal is also 10 minutes. Everydays goal from here on out is ten minutes. If I do more great. If I miss a day no problem.

Dropped down to 170 but cannot remember my pin for the ticker. Durn. Now trying to remember what I ate yesterday. fajita salad; chicken, peppers, onion, cheese, and sour cream, pork rinds and salsa, then chicken soup homemade with lots of celery and cilantro.

A it turns out eating better is easier than working out. In the past three weeks I have made on permanent change. I clean house most days for twenty to thrity minutes. Seems small, but for me it is huge. I set the timer and work on laundry for 10 minutes and reset it and work in the kitchen for 10 minutes and then reset it and work someplace else in the house for 10. The place looks pretty good and I think I have set a habit pattern. One week ago I went back on diabetic diet. My weight hac fluctuated as high as 177. It is back down to 172.6 this morning. Bec has the diagnosis, so I better make the life change now or lose a toe. Hopefully in 3 weeks new eating behavior will be a habit as well.

 

 

Picture Food Diary.

Reading articles on weight loss. Added green tea, acai, and flaxseed oil. Now I am going to start keeping a photo diary of what I eat. This should keep me honest.

easier goal

typically, I try to do too many things at a time and fail. I am inspired by my coworker who has recently quit smoking. She did not say I will quit smoking, work out, and go on a diet. She said I will quit smoking. So I will not say I will work out, go on an diet, and completely redo my house. I will say I will work out every day. That is my goal until it is a habit, then, maybe, I will do something else. If I can just work out every day for the rest of my life, that is something isn't it. I will also not say that I will work out 30 minutes every day. If it is five minutes so be it.

going down again.

After hovering around 175 for a few weeks, I finally dropped a few pounds. Yeah. Now I need to remember what I ate. There was not bread. There was cheese and tomato soup and a naked hamburger. So maybe that is my diet, cheese, milk, veggies, and a single serving of meat a day. I will stick with it today and see what happens. pass word is on the wall.

i am back

Hi I am back.I was doing my tack's lest tusday and i think i past the tack.

work out

I worked out on the wii fit for 75 minutes today. I need to figure out what my goal minutes by 3/30. Doing longer work outs will give me a little wiggle room later if I have to miss a day or something.

Short Term Goal #1

When I think of how far I have to go, it is overwhelming. Instead I am going to set shorter termed goals. I have been on my part-time vegetarian diet since Sunday. I took an apple and some string cheese to work with me yesterday and that worked perfectly. Today I ate frittata and an avocado for breakfast. I was not hungry for the rest of the day. Wow. Tonight I am having salmon, carrots and zucchini stir fried, and a salad. If I get hungry later on tonight, I will finish the little bit of zucchini lasagna.

Anyway, the goal. To eat on my part-time vegetarian diet and work out on the Wii Fit everyday humanly possible from now until March 30. The reason I picked March 30 is because I hope to be meeting some other north Texas garden bloggers in Edom at the North Texas Garden Bloggers Hoe Down, which was my suggestion. Anyway, I would like to lose 2 pounds or a little more a week. If I can lose one pound every three days that would be 12 pounds by 3/30 bringing me down to 162. The goal really is the diet and exercise. The weight is just a wish.

Oh have worked out on the wii two days in a row and will do it again after dinner. 40 minutes.

I am Renaming this blog Diary of a Part Time Vegetarian

Yesterday I started a new plan. I am having horrible gastric problems and I have not been eating right. Part of my problem is that my loving husband likes to feed me. My mistake is feeding myself poorly. Since going back to work I have been eating more fast food and my stress level is up. I weight 174 this morning. So on the days Larry works I am going to eat a modified vegetarian diet. Fresh veggies, fish (not fish sticks), eggs, and low fat and small servings of regular cheese.

Yesterday I had a fresh salad, salmon with chimmicurri sauce, zucchini lasagna.

When Larry is home I will eat the beef, chicken, pork, and pasta he makes. That will self limit my indulgences to three or maybe four meals a week. With each of those meals I will eat a salad. Lets see how this works.

Today I had string cheese, yellow squash with onion, curry, and sharp cheese. Tonight I will have salmon and a salad again.

first five pounds.

I have lost five pounds since starting over. I have tried to use the wii fit every day. Asthma prevented anything yesterday, but one day means nothing. Anyway, five pounds is something more than just normal weight fluctuation. Feeling pretty good about it.

New Years Resolution

In an attempt to begin my new year resolution to lose this ugly fat, I bought a digital scale yesterday. So far it is making me crazy. Anyway, I weight 178.8 lbs and need to lose 45.8 lbs. I asked for Wii fit for my birthday and purchased a bunch of good food yesterday. I have given myself a $60 a week on healthy good food and drinks such as herbal tea and real unsweetened cranberry juice. I am going to try to change my diet from an easy quick lousy died to a richer healthier more natural diet. In with the veggies, whole grains, low fat dairy, and out with the wine, beer, and white stuff. I slept very well last night and am looking forward to feeling and looking better.