Did Some Actual Gardening Today.

Worked for a friend for about five hours today. Feeling it in my back and legs. This is my REAL exercise. This I will actually do. She fed me a great lunch and gave me cuttings and eggs. I love my job and my friends. Warning, I'm going to be whining about this tomorrow.

Look at my new ticker. I wonder if the butterfly came from a catterpitter?

Weather

The weather is keeping me inside. I had two jobs to do this week. I could not go because of the rain and now the howling wind. Seems like half of North Texas is on fire.

Still eating well. Tried to eat one of those wrap sandwiches for lunch. I couldn't do it. That thing was nasty. One more good thing that has come out of this little lifestyle makeover is that I no longer make myself eat something I don't like. I would eat French fries because they came with a meal. I don't like most French fries.

Sweet Boy

Logan patted my belly and announce "you're getting skinny". He is 13 and newly appreciative of girlness. My girlness isn't gross in the OH MY GOD MY PARENTS HAD SEX way yet. He can still tell me "you're getting skinny " and it not be weird yet. I love this because I am so not getting skinny.

I'm going to type it three more times

"You're getting skinny"
"You're getting skinny"
"You're getting skinny"

Such a sweet boy. I wonder what he really wants?

Tough Weekend

I had a rough weekend and I feel pretty drained. The solution work I have done has helped immensely. I did not get a box of Triscuts and eat the whole damn thing with sharp cheddar cheese. I cried and I felt bad, but I ate right. Please DO NOT leave me comments about not letting people hurt my feelings or how what other people do and say should not matter. That is crap in my world and it does not make me feel better. It makes me feel like my emotions have no validity. I love you, but don't.

I lost another pound so I win!!!!!

Be nice or go away.

Sorry, sad has turned to mad and I am turning a little scary.

I posted an actually cycle earlier, but thought better of it and deleted it. If your reading this you are getting off easy.

100 foor diet

I am going to try this. The idea is to eat one homegrown, or mostly homegrown, meal per week. I want to eat more of my own veggies anyway. It is called The Hundred Foot Diet.

I just got it, no muffin top for this mom in those jeans.

It finally happened

I had to go to "Muffins for Mom" this morning, which means I had to actually get up and get dressed. I grabbed my jeans and they went on and zipped up and my gut did not hang over them. Yes, it finally happened. I was getting so discouraged because I didn't see or feel the weight loss. Well, I saw it and felt it this morning.

Hula Hoop

Okay, Jeanie, you made me do it. I busted out the hula hoop. I used to be able to make that thing spin around me for ever or at least until everybody else gave up. Well, it is a sad state of affairs now. The best I could do was three times around. So I guess I should do this every day and see if I can get my hula hooping skills back again. I really miss my waist.

This scary, honest, putting myself out there blog is working. I have not been perfect. In fact I have been pretty bad, especially this last week. I have not exercised like I am supposed to. I have set goals I have not kept. Still, on 12/16/07 I weighed 161 and at 5:45 this morning I weighed 149 again. For better or worse, the volunteer project deadline was midnight 1/22. I hope it was all submitted correctly. Anyway, that stress of that is gone. It is still freezing freaking cold here, so I don't suppose getting outside to exercise is going to happen in the next few days. My walking/jogging 100 miles this by 2/16 is pretty much a fantasy at this point. I hope to reset the goal and start over. At least I don't have to start over weighing 161 pounds or worse 189, like I was 3 years ago. I will end this rambling now.

Deb

Did you see it? There on the left. I weighed 149 this morning. Yeah, jump up and down, dance.

New soup recipe

I made the broccoli soup recipe with quinoa. It is so good. The quinoa cooks up kind of creamy. It has a higher protein level than a lot of grains.

Too much sleep.

I love to sleep. I like to stay up late and sleep in so I can actually sleep with my husband. Here's how I know I have had too much sleep; wake up, doze off and have a short dream that I've missed a kid's Christmas program, startle awake, doze off , hear an imaginary phone ring, wake up, doze off , dream youngest sister is not moving to another state and she has kidnapped me to get away from her nephews, startle awake. Now I know it's really time to get up and I really don't want baby sister to move to another state.

On the exercise front. It has been too cold to go outside and wog. Last weeks schedule prevented me from doing anything but volunteer work to meet a deadline. It is pretty outside today, but windy. I'm going to give it a shot. If my ears start to hurt, I'm quittin.

I still dont handle stress well.

The last week was a glaring example of how I ended up here to begin with. I am working on a really big project for a volunteer group. It is complicated, confusing, time consuming, bureaucratic, came with messed up instructions, and if I mess it up people are going to be pissed. Here is how I handled it: I ate a big greasy breakfast, I ate Chinese food, I ate fried chicken, I drank wine, and I had bad dreams. I did not cry or pick a fight with a sister. I am showing some improvement. I obviously feel a little toxic, so today I consume water, vitamins, and veggies.

Gotta eat the veggies

I've been lying. The last few days my weight has been 153 to 154. Finally, this morning it came back down to 150. I had the dreaded fluctuations and I didn't like it. The truth be told I have not been eating my veggies. I will be good, I promise.

gardening as exercise.

This is pretty much a duplicate post from my other blog only bitchier (did I spell that right). Don't bother reading it today if you read the other one. Unless you just want to read me whine.

I gardened for five hours today. That added up to 1370 calories. Walking the same amount of time would have added up to 1130 so I am counting my gardening as 15 miles of walking. I know I still have to walk for the cardio benefit, blah, blah, blah, blah, blah. So I will still do the wog thing another day-after day after day... I just want to count the back wilting, hand blistering, grass picking yard work too.

Thanks for your support Meme queen of grass pickin.

I have to go take a shower now. I have bermuda in my shorts.

Bye

Goal for the next month

I'm going to start wogging. I have almost been at this a month and I have not exercised even a little bit like I should. So here is the deal. Beginning 1/16/08 I am going to attempt to walk/jog= wog 100 miles over next month. The reason I picked Wednesday is because it will officially be one month since I started this. I am going to need praise and encouragement. Lots and lots of encouragement. I have mapped out a 3.1 mile route from my house to the elementary school. If you see me please don't run over me. I have been encouraged to get a partner to do this with me. I bet I don't get any volunteers for that.

Fuzzy socks

Logan was afraid we would be seen this morning. Is my fuzzy pink and blue ensemble really that embarrassing?

Here's why it doesn't matter or it matters a lot

So to make up for it, I ate stuffing for breakfast. I'm never going to be skinny

Owwww

I am sore. Really really sore. My calves hurt and so do my ribs. But, hey, I lost another pound.

Another development. I could not eat a double helping of stuffing last night. I love stuffing. I put a bunch of chopped up veggies in it, but still it is really just warm wet bread. Still, I couldn't eat a double helping. After my veggies and meat, I was just too full. I suppose this is a good thing, but I think I truly enjoyed over indulgence.

My Shoes on the left Tristan's shoes on the right
Tristan is an 8-year-old boy

Here is the new picture. I can't tell the difference. I am still about six pounds too heavy to wear these jeans comfortably, but at least they are buttoned and I am not way muffin topped.

First ten

Okay, instead of feeling bad yesterday, I should have celebrated. I lost 10 pounds. Since I am not on a "diet" and I have not been exercising as I should, this doesn't feel real. Its real. I am grateful for being able to wear my jeans without feeling like I am going to explode out of them. I am happy that I have been able to get back into a couple of pairs of my paints. The down side, my favorite bra is too big around my ribcage. I really love that bra.

OPPs

It is 4:30 in the morning, and I am worried. About three years ago I started a program to help me deal with emotional overeating. It helped me so much. I went there to lose weight, and found out I am crazy. My problems were one thing, but what I will call OPPs (other peoples problems) were causing me to get really out of control. I found myself at a better place last fall. Things were normal, or normal enough, and I did not think I needed to do that work anymore. This week OPPs have reared their ugly heads again, and I want Triscuts and cheese. The whole box of Triscuts and a block of sharp cheedar cheese. I know that Triscuts and cheese will not fix my problems or OPPs. Now, how do I get back to sleep?

Ending the pitty party

Okay, I have been feeling pretty sorry for myself and need to get over it. I added a sitemeter to this so I will know that someone sees it. Thanks for letting me know you are out there sis.

so so day

I didn't weigh this morning. I got an email request for another picture. I will do it Saturday. I ate well today. We had broccoli out of the garden for dinner. Energy level is still not good. Again, hopefully tomorrow will be better

headache = food craving

I had a headache all day and craved carbs bad. Hopefully, I will feel better tomorrow.

I hate crunches

The only reason I did the crunches tonight is because I wrote earlier on this blog that I would. You people would never know if I didnt do it. In fact I have no idea if there are any you people. I feel like I have phantom obligations. I'm tired, bye

Back feels better.

I have noticed that my back has felt better over the last week or so. It has to be the minimal core exercise I have done. That is what I am going to concentrate on this week, my middle

Fresh start

Getting back on track today. Shopped for skinny bread, fish, and veggies I cant grow this time of year. Going to make broccoli soup again. Worked outside in the garden, it was a beautiful day.

The last day of the holidays.

Today is the last day of the holidays for us. We celebrate Christmas with L's family tonight. If I make it through tonight without gaining any weight back, I will have succeeded and can start counting down again.

B-Day

took today off for my b-day. Had mexican for lunch and steak for dinner. Life is good.

Eating the good stuff.

I have noticed that when I want to eat, because I have to be honest here, I am now choosing better stuff. Today it was mushrooms and asparagus. I still feel like I ate too much, but at least it was too much good stuff.

What?

Okay, New years eve. Pizza, chips, soda. I should have gained, but no, another pound down. Days and days of being good, nothing, be really really bad, lose a pound. I dont understand my body.